danielle lucille

My precious daughter

My precious daughter,
I will never leave you,
I will never forsake you,
I will be faithful until the end,
You are more than just “my daughter”
You are my princess,
My beloved, my delight,
I rejoice in you,
You are beautiful,
You shine with light,
You have dove’s eyes,
I rejoice in you with singing,
I will quiet you with my love,
Hold you in my arms,
Never let you go,
For you are never alone,
You never have been alone,
I’ve been with you all along,
Your whole life,

I understand your pain,
My sacrifice wasn’t for nothing,
Let me tell you I understand your confusion,
I understand your anger and frustration,
I understand your tears,
And I care,
Very much,
For you,
Everything that is important to you,
Is important to me too,
My love for you will never end,
I will not leave you for another,
I will not abandon you ever,
No matter how far you go,
My love will never end.

I have examined you heart,
I know everything about you,
When you sit down or stand up,
I know your thoughts,
Even when you are far away,
I see you when you travel,
Or when you rest at home,
I see the tears that fall from your eyes,
I see the heartache in your home,
Believe me I know the lies,
I know the temptations,
But I am here,
I know what you are going to say,
Even before you say it.
I go before you and follow,
I place my hand of blessing on your head,
Such knowledge is beyond comprehension,
It is too wonderful for you to understand,
You can never escape from my Spirit,
You can never get away from my presence!
If you go up to heaven, I am there;
If you go down to the grave, I am there.
If you ride the wings of the morning,
If you dwell by the farthest oceans,
Even there my hand will guide you,
And my strength will support you.

You could ask the darkness to hide you,
And the light around you to become night,
But even in darkness you cannot hide from me,
To me night shine as day,
Darkness and light are the same to me,
I made all the delicate, inner parts of your body,
I made your heart,
I know what makes you hurt,
I know what makes you cry,
I know what makes you tick,
I know when breaks your heart the most,
And I know how to comfort you,
I know how to make you smile,
I know how to love you,
I know how to be a daddy who loves,
Such a beautiful daughter like you,
You long for acceptance,
When you were already accepted into my family,
You are fearfully and wonderfully made,
I love you more than you know,
I will fill your heart with the love and peace you long for,
I saw you before you were born,
I knit you together in your mother’s womb,
Even then I loved you,
And I was proud of you,
And I thought of you as my beautiful daughter, my princess,
Everyday of your life is recorded in my book,
Every moment was laid out,
Every moment that would bring you joy,
Every moment that would bring you pain.

My thoughts about you are precious,
They cannot be numbered,
They out number the grains of sand,
And when you wake up in the morning,
I am still with you,
I love you more than you know,
You are beautiful to me,
Even though you feel something is always wrong,
Just look into my eyes,
See how I see you,
A beautiful princess,
With beautiful eyes that shine with my love and my light,
I love you,
And I will say it again,
I love you,
My princess, my beloved,
My precious daughter,

I love you,
I love you,
I love you.

Don’t give up,
For I see the brokenness in your families,
In your friendships,
I see the pain in your eyes,
Your beautiful heart,
That used to be so filled joy,
Is now crushed beneath your burdens,
But you’re still beautiful to me,
So beautiful to me,
I will heal you and restore you once again,

My precious daughter,
I will never leave you,
I will never forsake you,
I will be faithful until the end,

Faithful until the end

Your loving Father and Daddy, Prince of Peace, King of Glory,
-Jesus

what i have learned the past few months

i am always at my best when i am close with the Lord. even if he is fixing me, as long as i am close, i am always a better person.

God will take care of stuff. dumb right? well he will, whether it has to do with a bible study that you are afraid people won’t come too, or school work he will take care of it.

don’t worry about the future, just think about what is right now and in front of you. this doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t plan for the future (for instance not getting in to the nursing program), because you definitively should, but ones the “plan” has been made, you can not worry about it until the future happens so don’t. just do your best now.

you can always study. 

even if you think there is nothing wrong with you and all the cracks have been fixed, there are still things that need to be re-broken and healed. 

i have way to much crap in my own personal life that needs to be fixed, so why would i want to bring anyone, specifically a guy in to the problems i have right now. so i don’t need a guy right now. (this one was hard because i though God was telling me to, not necessarily go for it but keep asking and searching and then i came to this answer.

even though i say i don’t need a guy and don’t want to bring him in to my mess, there are the times when i am still lonely and want someone. but during those times, i have to look to god because that is the only healthy thing to do.

i am so excited for the day i get to walk down that aisle with my mom and marry the guy God has set aside for me. i am in, i can’t think of the word but anticipation comes to mind, for the day that my husband and i will worship the Lord for bringing us together at our wedding ceremony and we will be able to work together for his good works.

it is scary to think that out of my whole family, i will be next to get married, and this will be when my family comes together next. it is so hard to imagine this as God still has not put his choice for my husband in my life (or if he has, i don’t know yet)

i need God so badly. 

you need to keep your commitments. 

our Father is so faithful to provide for us in each and everyway. if we trust him and put it in his hands he will provide us with exactly what we need, nothing more and nothing less.

even at this age it is a hard lesson to learn, what friends are there for you, and what friends really are not. the superficial friends. and added on to this, people will always let you down.

be faithful with what the Lord has given you. he will give you more when he knows you are ready for it. 

do not be jealous or spiteful of others as this only shows the flaws you have in yourself.

you/i am good enough. you should not compare yourself with others because you are not like others, you are one of a kind and that is good enough. don’t think about, well what if i was this or i need to be more outgoing ect. because what you are is what you are and God made you this way. and the devil is the one that wants to put you down.

being included in everything is not the most important thing in the world. 

hard work will always be valued, just make sure that people do not take advantage of you because of it.

sometimes the band aid just has to come off. and it is a process, it doesn’t happen just over night.

also, nothing can be compared to the sweet smell of fresh cut grass and summer time :)

first post of the night

there are going to be 2 posts tonight. the first one is, i need to do reflection for my therapy and i really don’t want to. i know why, because it is gunna hurt, and i don’t feel like peeling off those band aids and letting the hurt be exposed. it sucks. so i’m going to make a list of what i have learned over the past semester and hopefully that will get my creative juices flowing and will help me write my reflection.